Wednesday, August 29, 2012

Kindergarten Blues

This may be one of those posts that goes all over the place so hang tight....It hasn't been an easy couple weeks for my sweet, spirited boy or for his mama.  He's the one that pulls me in and breaks me apart and I just well, worry.  I worry that he'll be the one that is always to blame, that they won't see his big heart because they are too busy hearing his big voice and rough movements and that he will shrink away.  I worry he will start to feel less than and that he will be so hard on himself because I already see it happening.  And here I was thinking sending the second one off to Kindergarten would be easier as he seems to just roll with the punches....unfortunately he throws them too (that made me laugh a little, it's good to laugh, kind of sick of the tears).
Today I read a great e-mail, one of those forwards that I usually just delete, but this one came at the right time and it was one of those lists of things to remember about life.  The one that really hit me was, "Your children only get one childhood."  They only get one and I want them to have a blast and have fond memories.  I had a great childhood.  Sure I struggled some, we all did, but I can honestly look back and say I have such fond memories.  That statement just kind of hit me like a ton of bricks and I realized that it isn't all about me anymore.  I had my time.  It is all about them now and I need to do my darndest to make it the best childhood they can have.  I'm not saying it's time to put all my hobbies and passions aside completely, but it is time to not stress so much about what I want to do and instead focus more on what my children need. 
Like I said, this post is all over the place, but I just needed to get it out.  So here's to childhood, their childhood, may it be campfires and ghost stories, beach days and starry nights, sports and pizza parties and so much more.  Here's to my boy keeping his chin up and loving who he is cause he's amazing and I'm going to make darn sure that he knows it and that everyone sees it too!!!!!!


1 comment:

  1. Oh Harmony--this is so beautiful and hard and not all over the place. It is in one place--your heart--where your children live and because of this will have a great childhood even with a few bumps and with people who don't see their light shine even when they should.