I worked as an Occupational Therapist for 16 years and it will always be part of who I am. I loved working with special needs children and their families. What I loved most was being a part of their extraordinarily challenging yet rewarding lives. They let me into their homes and often into their hearts and allowed me to do my best to help their most precious gift....their child. And even though it is rather cliche, I can say, without a doubt, they helped me more than I helped them. So why did I stop working as an Occupational Therapist? Something was missing for me....I could never explain it. Part of it was the pressure I put on myself and the insecurity that remains from growing up with a learning difference (Dyslexia). I never felt like I knew enough, no matter how much of a demand there was for my services, no matter how many people told me I was so good at what I did....I just didn't fully believe it. It was also quite a demanding career and required a lot of caregiving. Once I had children I realized I had to reserve some of that caregiving to take care of my kids. I just couldn't do it all.
I still can't do it all, which is a hard lesson to learn (over and over again). The rebel in me loves to hear, "You can't do that," so I can say, "Oh really? Watch me!!!" And I do push forward and take on A LOT and then I have to regroup when I realize that I'm yelling too much, not sleeping enough, not breathing deeply and most importantly, not enjoying this one life I've been given. It's kind of too bad that we can't carry around a crystal ball that can give us a look into the future so we can see if the decisions we are making are going to work out. But we can't, so we learn by doing, and making mistakes, and then making adjustments.
So I am making an adjustment......I am putting the Friday Feature Artist interview on hold. Now that I realize it is a lot to plan and organize I just don't have the time right now to do it. So much to juggle....can't do it all. I hope you enjoyed the ones I posted.....I sure did.....so let's just say...."to be continued," when the time is right. In the meantime, I am going to post more of my art and photography and reflections on....."doing it all". Hope you'll still stop by to say "Hello".....I like having you here.